Monday, May 3, 2010
to work, or not to work.....
I'm a pretty smart girl. I always had to work a little harder than most of my peers when it came to school work, but what I lack in book smarts, I make up for in common sense. I have my degree in elementary education, and my real estate broker's license. I got accepted into a masters and PhD program for marriage and family counseling, but only took a couple classes before Eric and I decided to move to Denver. But, here I am. A mother of an almost 2 year old, and I'm not working. Yes, I watch another little boy for money. Yes, I sell real estate and make good money doing that. But I don't go to work, in the traditional sense. When it comes down to it, our family is much better off financially by me staying home. The money I make watching Christopher and selling real estate together is more than I would make if I went back to teaching and put Jackson in day care. Sounds nice, right? It did to me too! It's what I've always wanted. The problem with it is that I'm bored out of my mind! Mentally bored. I don't need more things to do. I stay plenty busy cleaning, chasing, wiping and cooking, but that isn't exactly the most mentally stimulating stuff. So, what should I do? I ask myself this everyday. I know for sure that I don't want to go back to teaching. I didn't like it and the pay isn't good enough for me to tough it out anyway. And I'm REALLY not excited about sending Jackson to someone else to raise him. I do a much better job than anyone else in the world could. I recently decided to not take on anymore kid watching. I'll watch Christopher and be totally fine with that. I can handle 2 of them. If we need to go out, we can. I have 2 car seats, a double stroller and 2 hands. I can make that work. This decision was mostly based on my sanity. I can't handle not having the freedom to leave the house. It's just not me. I'd love more real estate work, but unfortunately, so does every other broker out there. Hopefully, someday I will have enough work to consider myself "full time", but for now, I just take what I can get. So, I don't really want to go back to work, but I don't really want to stay home either. What's a girl to do????? That wasn't a rhetorical question.....seriously! What should I do? I blog. That uses up some mental space. I try to do things around the house, like Jackson's camping room. That uses some brain too. I've started making these kids t shirts to sell. That helps me stay busy....er, and hopefully will help make some money someday too. Would it be better to get a full time job out of the house, even if it means a pay cut and not seeing Jackson as much? Maybe. Anyone have an insight for me? Please!
Posted by Mile High Mom at 1:54 PM